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Wahai pujangga cinta, biar membelai indah,
Teladani kalbuku, jujurlah pada hatimu.

That is part of Melly Goeslow's song " Ada Apa Dengan Cinta".
Hhmm, lately, my mood is like unpredictable. Sometimes i feel so sad, sometime i feel so angry. Happy?? Just outside. Inside?? No one know. Only me and Allah SWT know. But, i don't know why, when i heard song especially "jiwang punya lagu" I feel it. then, tear drops from my eyes. i always heard song at night. When i'm alone in my room. Then, i read my novels. Don't know lah.

Honestly, i feel so lonely. Yes, i still have my family. But, they are too busy with their works. Sometimes, not sometimes, everytime i watched SETIA HUJUNG NYAWA, i feel like. I wanna be that girl. hahaha... funny right. I don't know. Maybe, i want to love somebody and be loved by somebody. Yeahh, my family of course la love me. But this is LOVE. Man's love. But, i don't know who. Eh wait. i know. Now i'm really in love with Zain Hakimi.Hahahaha.. I know he is Amar Asyraf and already engaged. But, i just like him. Amar looks more handsome dengan watak dan gaya Zain. Dengan rambut pacak, nakalnya. Hahaha.. tapi satu je watak Zain ni, KUAT CEMBURU. hahaha.. Sayang cakap je la sayang. Geram pulak tengok cerita tu.. Bestnya kalau dapat jumpa Amar Asyraf face to face. I'm just his peminat rahsia. Banyak artis yang kita suka, sayang semua bagai.

Tapi suka, sayang tak semestinya cinta. Cinta pun, tak semestinya kita akan bersama. Kadang-kadang cinta memerlukan pengorbanan. Pengorbanan untuk melihat orang yang kita cintai itu bahagia disamping orang yang dia sayang. Benarlah kata orang.

" KITA HANYA MEMERLUKAN SESAAT UNTUK JATUH CINTA DENGAN SESEORANG, TETAPI KITA MEMERLUKAN MASA SEUMUR HIDUP UNTUK MELUPAKAN SESEORANG."

#EH??

* Whoaa, sangat tak sangka aku boleh jadi jiwang macam ni. Ikut moodlah. 
P/s : Jangan marah ye peminat Amar yang lain. Hehehe.. Saya memang dah suka Amar sejak dia berlakon dalam cerita Dalam Hati Ada Taman. All the best Amar. Semoga kerjaya anda semakin meningkat maju. :)